For Once...

It has been quite some time since I experienced a moment of "stark realization." Today it happened again.

It seems as though it is a 'FINALLY' moment, and the fact is I have had these experiences before, but bear with me while I use terms to illustrate that may not necessarily be accurate.

For once in my life I know what I want, what I want to be, and what I want to become.

I've thought much about the words of this statement and the thoughts behind it. I've also chosen to break it down into parts to help understand and convey the thought clearly. As a disclaimer, the following may incur additions or changes as time moves forward.

1. What I want:

I want to finally feel the feeling of eternal marriage.
I want to love another selflessly and without prejudice.
I want to trust another with everything in my life. The good, the bad, the dreams, the sorrows.
I want an overwhelming experience with another human being. Of course, of the female gender, but one that encompasses the dreams and aspirations of what I expect dedicated companionship and love ought to be.
I want to give up everything I am or have to feel these things and experience these moments.
I want to always treat others in a way that makes them feel special and loved.

2. What I want to be:

I want to be a loving and dedicated husband and best friend.
I want to be a loving and dedicated father to the eventual children with my wife.
I want to be successful. Not only outside the home, but more importantly inside the home.
I want to be like my role models who provide great examples of what is really important.
I want to be the type of person that others want to be like.
I want to be loved no matter my weaknesses, imperfections, or disposition in life.
I want to be Christlike in all of my actions.

3. What I want to become:

I want to become the man that God wants me to become.
I want to become greater than I ever naturally thought was possible.
I want to become as a little child. With innocence and courage for the future.
I want to become one unit and one entity with an eternal spouse.
I want to become as my Father in Heaven.

What I realize in these things is if you change the word 'want' to 'have' things are much different.
For example, in order to obtain the things I 'want', I need to 'have' those things as well. The blessings of this life are a two-way street. We may wish for things and hope for things but the responsibilities of attaining those desires carry with them an equal measure of work and dedication.

As always thanks for reading and I'm curious to know your thoughts on this matter or any comments.